I have been like this before – many times to tell the truth. I have plenty of ‘before’ photos I could share, I have analyzed myself a lot in the past four years, recording huge amount of data. I thought that might be the ultimate solution to overcome my struggle with weight problems: recording everything in great details so as to find the truth beneath the surface.

I know I have to get up again: climb that mountain. Defeat myself: be better today than I was yesterday. This time I have learnt my lesson: I won’t ever take anything for granted, not even the slightest success of this long way I’m having right in front of me.

I look in the mirror and I don’t feel any different. The same old me is staring back at me, the same old way with the same expression. I know I failed again and couldn’t succeed my previous goal but I’m used to this feeling. I have been through this a thousand times so far, I stopped counting years ago.